La Di Dah...

It's been beautiful weather here lately!! I love it!
So this week, I still stunk on my goals. And it showed this week, I gained a little bit, but not a whole lot which is a relief.
I think that this next week, I am definitely going to not have a zillion goals. Only one or two. haha
The water thing went well, I drank a lot more than I normally do. AND I lost my water bottle!! This was sort of a tragedy for me. However, I can't remember if I mentioned this before, but I went to Pilates for the first time last week, and I enjoyed it so much that I decided that I'm going back. It definitely was nothing like I thought it would be. I didn't sweat at all, but I definitely felt like all the muscles in my body had been used, which was totally cool. I think it's definitely a good replacement for Zumba. :)
For this week, my goal will be to continue to drink lots of water.
The other goal I will have for this week is to work out twice (once will be Pilates).
I think that I should really focus on the working out goal this week. haha I haven't really done that yet, and I know that it will help boost weight loss.
And now I have some awesome news!!!
My total weight loss for this month is... (drumroll...)
6.4 pounds!! Woo-hoo! So This month I definitely accomplished hitting five pounds. I'm not sure entirely that it is an accurate number, just because of that first week, but regardless, this is exciting news!

Sine qua non

I definitely forgot to blog today... Sorry guys! I have to admit, I think part of the reason I've been postponing writing this is because I did NOT do very well at all on my goals for this week, so I'm keeping the some of the same goals:

Writing in a journal every day (I need to buy a new one)
Working out twice (Pilates tomorrow with a friend!)
Stretching
More water!!

Even though I did not do well on my goals this last week, I still lost a pound. Which is exciting!
I hope you all have a lovely day/ evening! I promise, I will do a longer post next week!


P.S. The title is a Latin phrase that stands for "without which not." Sometimes translated as "that which one cannot do without." My sine qua non this week is definitely the Lord. That's just something I have to keep in mind while doing this. 

Zumba

One of times for me to work out this week was going to be Zumba, hosted by my awesome school on an awesome Tuesday night.
They switched the time to Thursday night. Which means I cannot attend because I work on Thursdays. This makes me sad. 

Easy as one, two, THREE..

Maybe taking off weight is not, but that phrase was in a song that I just finished listening to. haha And this is week three!

This week went pretty well as far as the weekly goals go-- I ate breakfast every day. I must say, that this is something that I'm going to keep up. I had SO MUCH ENERGY this week. It was insane. Ask my roomie- she'll testify. hahah I thought maybe it was because I was getting lots of sleep, but even on the days that I hadn't had a good night's sleep, I had lots of energy. So breakfast it is.

As far as brushing my teeth, I definitely brushed them more than I would have, if I had not been thinking about it. haha I know that I skipped a couple of nights, but I brushed every morning. I think that this is just a good habit to be in (My dentist is going to love me.), so I'm going to keep this one up as well.

I'm going to type up my schedule sometime in the near future with "working out" in one of the time slots.

This week one of my goals is to work out at least twice. On the days that I don't work out, I want to do some stretches. I used to be really flexible and now, not so much. So here's to being able to... I dunno. haha I was going to say "being able to touch my toes!" but I can definitely do that fairly well. haha
Another goal this week is to eat fruit in the cafeteria for dessert rather than having cookies. Peanut butter and apples or peanut butter and bananas sounds really tasty (peanut butter in moderation is healthy-- I've looked it up!), and a lot healthier than cookies and cappuccino.
Also, more water!! I'm just going to leave it at that. If I need to drink an extra glass at supper, I will. If I need to drink more out of my water bottle, I will... More water.
For mental health this week, I'm going to start journaling every night again. I got out of the habit over Christmas break, but now I'm back, and it's going to happen.
All in all, this has been a good experience, and slowly but surely the weight is beginning to leave. Someone once told me to not say "losing weight," because that implies that you're trying to find it again. And that's just not on my agenda, so I'm going to "take the weight off" instead... I'll probably forget about it, but I will do my best.

I almost forgot! I tried some ice cream this week-- Skinny Cow's Dulce de Leche. Holy smokes. It was savory. I think it's definitely in the running for "healthy ice cream."
To all my lovely readers, thanks for your support in this endeavor. I still don't know how to transfer the before picture from the one place, to the dealy, to the thing-a-ma-jig, so patience would be appreciated! hahaha This is a pretty long post! Sorry about that! If I have time this week, I am going to write a blog about my relationship with food. Relationship? Yup. That's what I'd call it. haha I hope you all have a lovely week! 

Phew!

So this concludes Week One of this craziness.
I didn't do very well on my goals of the week, but I did accomplish one. That counts for something, right?!
I moved back to school on Sunday, and after a three week break it's definitely been hard to get back into "school mode." There was a fiasco with a tub and water, there was much socialization, and the good Lord has granted me the punishment for Eve's sin. Needless to say, it's been sort of a weird week.
On the upside, I went grocery shopping [I definitely just tried to spell "shopping" "schopping"... Oi. hahah] and nothing I brought back was unhealthy! I did spend WAY too much money on groceries, but I suppose that's the price one has to pay to eat healthy.
This week, as I'm becoming more healthy, one of my goals is to brush my teeth twice a day. Maybe even floss a few times. Silly? Maybe. But "healthy" isn't an exclusive club of food and running.
Another one of my goals is to take a good, long, hard look at my schedule and decide when I want to exercise each day.
A third goal is to eat breakfast every day. [I have issues with eating breakfast, but while I was grocery schopping (haha) I bought some oatmeal (Yum!) and some Hot Pocket breakfast thingys.]

I've been trying to get a before picture up, but I'm having issues with thing in the dealy-bopper, so you are just going to have to be patient for me. Trust me, I'm not going change that much between this week and next week. haha If I do, we might have an issue. Although it does seem that the scale here at school leans in my favor, I don't think I've lost 5 pounds this last week (not without working out).

Confession

I believe I have a few confessions to make already.

I have only walked once so far-- but I still have two days left to walk the other time.
I've only reached my goal of drinking two large cups of water twice this week. That's a lot of water!
And I haven't sent this link to anyone yet...
I'm not entirely sure why, but I think that it mostly boils down to me being afraid. Afraid of what, you ask? Afraid of people holding me accountable. Afraid of actually having to get off my butt and exercise. Afraid of changing the way I eat [I really enjoy food]. Afraid of people judging me [Let's face it-- if a fat girl starts to work out or eat healthy, people are going to notice and judge, that's the way of the world]. Afraid of actually losing the weight. This one doesn't seem so scary, but if you've been overweight your whole life, it's kind of a terrifying thing.
So I'm afraid.
I do know though, that the people I send this to will be super supportive. I know that the Lord wants me to take care of the body He has given me, and the way I'm living now is not taking care of it. I know that I can lose weight, because I've done it before. I know that when temptation arises to eat a pint of ice cream or eat ten thousand cookies [that's a hyperbole, remember people- sarcasm! haha] that there will be people there to help me say no or to offer me a healthy alternative.
So I'm going to do it today. I'm going to post this, and then I'm going to send the link to some people.



AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! hahah 

The Beginning

Hello all! It is the beginning of 2012.
It's the beginning of a new school semester.
It's the beginning of the week [yesterday was declared a "holiday"].
It's the beginning of my weight loss journey.

Today I am heavier than I have been my whole life-- and that's going to change this year. As fond as I am of my voluptuous curves, they've got to go. I have a few goals set out for this year, but before we get to that, here is a little bit about me:

I am 21, going to a small university in Nebraska. I'm a Christian and going into church work, so don't be surprised if God comes up sometimes. My favorite color is red. I love reading. I'm pretty introverted, so writing a blog about weight loss is sort of a big deal for me. I'm pretty forgetful. I'm very sarcastic, and laughter is a hobby.

Ever since I can remember, I've been a heavy person. There is not a time that I can think of that I wasn't big. I have pictures to prove it, too. I'm not sad that I'm big; I'm not angry that I'm big. I'm terrified of the health issues that run in my family, and being obese can definitely cause them to have an early onset (diabetes, cancer, ect.).   I'm not losing weight for those that have made fun of me. I'm not losing weight for others at all, in fact. I'm losing weight for me. Because I am concerned about me. It may sound narcissistic, but that's the way it has to be.

The area of study I have chosen requires me to go on a year long internship when I am done with four years of school. I'm in the second half of my third year. I go on internship in June of 2013. Here are the goals that I've set for the long term:
           1. I will lose 80 pounds by May 25, 2013. [That's just under five pounds per month.]
           2. I will learn to cook good, healthy, and cheap food for one person.
           3. I will find a "healthy" ice cream. [This one's my favorite goal. :)]

Each week, I decided I'm going to have a mini-goal. I will blog about the mini goals as the weeks pass. My first goal is to drink two 30 ounce cups of water each day this week. As you can see below, that's a massive cup. It's almost as big as my head.

This week I will also walk on the treadmill twice, for 50 minutes each. [I know I won't always be able to walk for 50 minutes, but I'm still on Christmas break, so I figured that I can walk longer while I'm here. Why not?!
This week, I will also send this link to the girls on my hall, and a few other close friends so they can help me. Not only help motivate me, but to remind me to blog. :)

I hope that I didn't bore you with my long-winded self. In my next blog, I'll try to have a "before" picture, and I'll write a bit about my addiction to food.

Here's to making 2012 awesome!! Here's to losing myself to find me!