Midterms

Hello!
I know that I haven't been very consistent with my blogging. Sorry about that.
This week here at school it's midterms. What does that mean? It means a lot of tests, projects, and papers for me. A lot of stress. A crapton of stress.
So I've gained since the last time I've blogged. But I've also worked out a whole bunch more since the last time I've blogged.
I think this week I should focus mostly on the foods that I'm putting in my mouth (i.e. cookies, fried foods... basically Cafeteria food).

A goal: No fries. No desserts. (Yes, I did have this goal earlier. No, it did not go well.)
Goal 2: Purchase healthy breakfast things for breakfast (hahahaha that's redundant, but I'm going to leave it).
Goal 3: Journal every day for a stress reliever.

I think this is a pretty solid amount of goals, and I think they're all pretty achievable. I sort of wish I was at home with my mom. We dominate eating healthy when we're together. I also know that I have to start depending on myself rather than someone else.

I hope you all have a lovely day/ week! 

Valentine's Day!

Well, today was awesome. (not sarcasm)

Happy Valentine's Day! I realize I'm about 19 minutes late, but that's just the way it has to be. hahah

This week was much better than the last. 

I have definitely worked out more than just twice this week-- I worked out three times! Woo hoo!

I also drank a significant amount of water. So that's exciting! 

This week I'm going to try and work out about three or four times. 

I'm also going to attempt to eat a salad at every meal that I eat in the cafeteria. 

I will also get back to eating breakfast every day (a semi-healthy one). It's not so much that I've fallen out of that, but that I just didn't make it a priority. 

I lost again this week, so that's exciting as well!! 

Help!

Alright. I’ve been postponing writing this post because I don’t like talking about weaknesses that I have.  Because that’s not how we’re supposed to portray ourselves to the world. So here it goes.

My weakness? Food.

What kind of food? ALL OF IT.

I’m a hopeless addict to food. My day revolves around food—breakfast, lunch, supper, snacks…

Much of my life has revolved around food- birthday parties, family suppers, Thanksgiving, Christmas, going to Grandma’s for dinner. I have many memories attached to food. And thus begins my relationship with food.

It’s not a very healthy relationship—I eat a whole lot, it makes me feel like a failure for eating so much, so then I want to eat more. Food has been my only constant “relationship” for a very long time. [I shouldn't even call it a relationship.] When I’m happy, I eat. When I’m sad, I eat. When I’m bored, I eat. When I’m angry, I eat…. 

Basically, I eat a lot. Food has been a reward. Food has been a punishment… And exercise has not been my friend at all.

So this is me calling out for help.

I need help to eat healthy. I need people to tell me that I don’t need a pint of ice cream (or really even want one…). Food is my weakness and I need a net of people to help me be strong. To help me not eat those ten thousand cookies, to encourage me to work out, and most of all to pray for me to have courage to do this.

Because this is scary.

And I’m jumping in head first.